I'm glad I survived you....
I REALLY didn't want to go to work today because of my short weekend due to my Saturday workshop, however I'm hoping to take a day off in Feb to scrapbook with Kelly and I really need to schedule some MD appointments which I know will take some of my days. I did, however, leave at 3:45 today so I could get my car washed and be home by 5. Zoe is playing outside, I've been reading Crazy Love, vegetables are roasting in the oven so I can make penne with roasted vegetables for dinner
and I'm taking time to blog random, everyday stuff. I find that on these days when I dread going to work that I really need to nurture my creative side and seek God once I get home.
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A few things from my reading in Crazy Love this evening really resonated with me...I've always struggled to have consistent quiet times...I do really well for a few weeks and then it seems that my snooze button gets easier and easier to hit in the morning....and I always feel guilty (although not guilty enough to get up earlier) Well, I read this today and it really comforted me in a way...although I need to be careful not to use Chan's thoughts as an excuse for not having quiet times. Here's what he says
"Most Christians have been taught in church or by their parents to set aside a daily time for prayer and Scripture reading. It's what we are supposed to do, and so for a long time it's what I valiantly attempted. When I didn't, I felt guilty. (I know that feeling!) Over time I realized that when we love God, we naturally run to Him--frequently and zealously. Jesus didn't command that we have a quiet time with Him each day. Rather, He tells us to "love the Lord your God with all your soul and with all your mind." He called this the "first and greatest commandment" The results are intimate prayer and study of His Word. Our motivation changes from guilt to love. This is how God longs for us to respond to His extravagant, unending love; not with cursory "quiet time" plagued by guilt, but with true love expressed through our lives."
So, although I do long to be that woman of God who has a fantastic quiet time each and every day I realize that what really matters to God is that I love Him...great!!! But wait, what does it look like to love God with all your heart and mind? Seriously, I don't think loving Him is about having the perfect quiet time each morning or memorizing a Scripture verse. Don't get me wrong all of those things are fantastic ways to grow as a believer, to gain knowledge about Him, to build discipline...but what does it mean to really LOVE God? I am at awe of His creation, I marvel at the intricacies of his handiwork, I believe He still performs miracles, I have seen his grace and mercy in my life countless times...but is recognizing who He is and the Power He has the same as loving Him. I am so thankful for everything He has done for me and those I love, but I guess my struggle is how do I love Him fully. Can I love Him fully? I guess these are my questions as I read on in Crazy Love. What does loving God mean to you? How does it look in your life? I'd love to hear your thoughts...